I am sulking. I spent weeks training for the Chicago Marathon, which a mere four days away, but have been sidelined for the past few weeks because of an ITB injury. I ran two friggin' 18 milers before this happened. I ran countless 4-6 milers and 12 weeks worth of long runs. I know injuries happen, and I know that I will be running again soon. I have tried to keep a positive point of view about all of this, and for the most part I have. But the disappointment I'm feeling this week is bitter.
So I sulk. I'll stop sulking soon, but I'm giving myself permission to feel shitty about this through Sunday.
Of course you feel bad. You were looking forward to it! There is nothing wrong with mourning the loss of the opportunity to run a race that you were looking forward to.
ReplyDeleteOur logical side knows when we need to stop and heal, but the emotional side gets sad/mad. It's all part of being a human. :-)
I give you permission to sulk for a few days. I think you've earned it and I believe a little sulking now and then is actually healthy. Let your emotions run free for a bit and then get back to the business of being positive.
ReplyDeleteFor now: stupid ITB injury. Stupid running. Stupid races.
I hope you feel better soon!
Been there, and have a couple of (unsolicited) suggestions... (You can take 'em or leave 'em.) ;-)
ReplyDeleteSign up for another marathon (or half) asap.
Consider volunteering at the race, instead of running it -- at least you'll get to participate!
(And you have every right to sulk through Sunday.)
That's fair. I'll sulk with you.
ReplyDeleteYou totally have permission to sulk. It's only natural. And Sunday will suck. My hardest day so far has been a few weeks ago when the Ragnar team I was supposed to be on kicked butt and posted lots of pics on FB. I was happy for them, but so, so sad not to have been part of that experience. But I came through the other side and so will you.
ReplyDeleteI'm not gonna lie and tell you to stop sulking because I would probably be doing the same thing, so sulk away! But you should be proud of yourself for listening to your body and only doing what it can take right now. I'll run a mile for you for sure this weekend!
ReplyDeleteYes. Let yourself feel how you feel, try to avoid doing any physical damage to yourself (no kicking brick walls--the wall always wins!), and know that eventually, you will feel better.
ReplyDelete(I definitely spent some time sulking early this summer when things were not going my way, and I don't regret letting myself sulk at all. I know I wouldn't have been able to do what needed to be done if I hadn't given myself permission to be mad, so I fully support you doing the same!) xoxo
Oh I would be throwing such a pity party if I was you, honestly. So you go ahead and sulk and bitch and complain all you want! I will be hear to listen and sympathize because I know how much it sucks to have to back away from something. Esp after having worked so hard. :( There will be other races, but def do not feel bad about sulking about this for awhile...
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